an average kind of feeling

Howdy bloggy?

Aku abis pulang olahraga,lari di senayan ma nuning n temen2 yg lain....skrg uda d rumah,huiiih I'm so sleepy yaa...zzz..ZZZZ....zzzz

counting days menuju kepindahan gw ke funding,hiks...sediiih,akan kehilangan temen2 divisi gw yang asik2 anaknya..walaupun kdg ada nyebelinnya,cuma overall asik2 bgt.jujur gw juga cukup antusias utk pindah ke funding,secara gw ngincer pengalamannya dan pekerjaannya ya..tp gw jg takuuut...deg2an ajaa,keep questioning will I survive there..huhuhuhu,tp aku kan gak boleh pesimis gitu yah.I believe that ini uda rencana yg dikasih oleh allah untuk gw lewatin,pasti untuk tujuan yg baik..amiiin

Hari senin kmarin gw pergi ke ambas,dan disana janjian ketemuan sama willy...itulooh temennya adilah,waktu itu gw juga pernah pergi nonton sama makan with him..dan ini kali kedua gw pergi ma dia..baiknya willy mau nemenin gw service  ini,trus nemenin makan secara gw laperr banget saat itu..awalnya c dia ngedumel2 diminta nemenin gw nunggu 1 jam buat servoice , eeeh tapi ternyata dia nungguin and nemenin juga loooh...that's so sweet of him,makasiii ya wil lo dah gak membuat gw ngerasa kesepian hari senin kmarin ☺ ☺ ☺

Hari ini mbak bos kuw which is mbak evi ulang tahun,dan kita smua 1 divisi ditraktir lunch di american grill...seruuu dan seneng. Trus kita pada patungan beliin mb'evi kado,kadonya dah gw,lenny,juju sama rio cariin kemaren di senci..setelah muter2 dan binguung mau kasi apa finally kami memutuskan untuk membelikannya tas kulit zara berwarna coklat dan tasnya kereeeeen...pingin bgt punya :( hiks hiks..

So far I had a great time lately,sooo glad I'm surrounded by great family, cheerful friends,♥ them all...walaupun aku gak ada someone special saat ini,tapi aku bersyukuuur bgt sama allah atas smuanya..bahagia d..☺ ☺

my jogja trip

Hai bloggy,

I'm in jogja right now,dalam rangka kawinan sepupukuw si yudit di solo. Acara nikahannya alhamdulillah berjalan lancar,and I'm wishing all the very best for yudit n karin :)

Bloggy,last night I had a strange dream..very strange,dan tadi sore ade'nya dambha bbm-in gw..dia minta maaf klo slama ini ada salah krn besok dia ada ujian seleksi masuk ui..I wish her a very gutluck :)

Bloggy,tadinya aku mau crita2 tp dah keburu ngantuk nih,beesok aja ya critanya..nighty nite dear :)

my gloomy monday

Hai bloggy,

Yes it's monday...not running very well in the office during my transition day to funding. hate it someone today,I don't know why but why she always treat me so differently,she ask me to make a report for someone which I knew is sooo busy with his own business lately,and he always have an excuse for that..and what I hate mostly is that she always ok with his excuse..it's really insane..dan karna gw dah kesel,dan gak peduli lg kali yah jd gw bodo amat aja lah

But alhamdulillah,thanks to allah..my day in the office nd up with a good ending...I saw a rainbow!!!which I never saw before,baruuu td siang pas lunch gw ngobrol ma ucil n anak2 lainnya ttg pelangi...gara2nya si ucil liat pelangi kemaren,trus dia foto tuh pelangi..dan gw liat fotonya,dan gw bilang "huaaa aku gak pernah liat pelangi :( " eh tau2nya sore ini I saw a beautiful rainbow...subhanallah :)
Trus abis itu hari ini juga,nuning ngajakkin krimbatan di laris,sooo here I am...hair spa-ing di laris...uenaaak :)

cheerfull day

Bloggy,

I had a very great time today.started with ragunan trip,naik busway rame2 ma temen kantor..yg ikut ada nuning,holy (temennya nuning),donny,dino,januar,bisma..seven of us,bisma dah disana duluan gak ikutan naik busway. Trus muter2,liat gajah,ayam,kelinci,babi,beruang,gorilla(oooh kayak gitu toh gorila aslinya,lucuu yah..eh ada yg namanya kumbo loh,dan ada satu lg yg aku namakan dambo,lol!),orangutan,komodo,singa,harimau...trus naik delman,trus liat primata schmutzer,foto-foto,piknik,makan,ngobrol2,ketawa2...such a lovely day.tapi pegel gila! Bayangin kita di ragunan dari jam 10 ampe jam 5 sore,dari panas terik sampe hujan lebat hingga panas lagi.luckily ada mobilnya bisma yg menyelamatkan kita para wanita which is jihan,nuning n holi sehingga pas balik ke kantornya gak perlu naik busway dan berjalan kaki menyebrangi jembatan lagi...fiuh!
Well,the fun was not yet finish..setelah pulang dari ragunan kami memutuskan untuk bernyanyi bersama-sama alias berkaraoke soooo mampirlah kita di inul vizta plaza semanggi....karaoke-an kurang lebih 2 jam,nyanyiin bermacam2 lagi,mulai dari tahun 70an ampe 2000an...hahahhaa,gelo' smua mah anak2nya...seruuu bgt,sepertinya pada melampiaskan emosi dan segenap perasaannya lewat lagu semua deh :p trus selesai karaokean jam 10 malam dan berpamitanlah kita untuk mengakhiri hari yang indah ini
Well bloggy,that's it my activity for today...very fun kan? I ♥ my friends bloggy...smoga hari-harikuw akan slalu ceria seperti ini,amiieen...nah karena skrg aku uda mandi,dan kaki,kepala,badan dah pegel smua..jadi aku mau istirahat dulu yah,c u tomorrow...nite :)

confession before sleep

I'm feeling blue :)bloggy,I know that things were ups and down..we learned from that,I know that experience is the best teacher,but today..right now,I don't agree!
I do want to cry,coz its the best way to heal my sadness..no one to talk,no one to share..just u bloggy,u're all that matters.
I miss someone that I don't know...I miss having somebody to share my loneliness...I miss being around with someone...I miss all the good and warmth feeling for loving someone...I miss it all :'(

macet...maceeet

Bloggy,meet me again in this traffic madness...fiuuuh,crazy! Bloggy,finally keputusan akuw rotate ke funding keluar juga,selesai sudah masa singkatkuw sebagai marketing,efektif per 1 may aku uda di bagian funding...antara seneng,sedih,takut smua jadi satu...seneng krn dapet pekerjaan dan pengalaman baru,sedih karena I'm gonna miss divisikuw yg asik2 anaknya,takut karna fundiiing gitu looh...sepertinya susah ya bloggy.tapi gw tetep alhamdulillah sama allah..makasi ya allah :)
Eniwei,ada satu blog yg suka gw baca...pemiliknya namanya dinda nawangwulan,very tough woman...pernah kena penyakit yg cukup mematikan,ditinggal mati oleh suami...and yes that's really hard!gw gak bisa ngebayangin klo jadi dia....hiks,mellow all the time sepertinya :p
Bloggy,td siang accidentally gw melihat email2 dari him to me,huaaaaa hate it.kok masih ada ya? Kan waktu itu dah gw apus2in..huh capek d
Ya sudah ya aku mau istirahat dulu.. C u bloggy :)

waiting

Hai bloggy,dah lama ya gak crita-crita :) I'm at cityloft right now,another saturday blue nite :p...sitting at starbucks wif my sister mb'ata while waiting for my other sister mb'naz karaoke-ing with her friends at KTv...a lil bit sleep at the moment,but can't sleep since its not in my bed :( Pretty tiring day..ke bengkel,ke ambasador,ke pasaraya and end up di citywalk..sometimes being a jakarta citizens is quite boring,the entertainment that you have is only mall,mall and mall..now there's soooo many malls here,u can see it at every district or corner,either it's a low-mid size mall...or the elegant one,sooo many!myself can't even count it anymore!lebay yaa...=D ha =D ha =D ha =D ha,but heeyy that's so true..ever since I was little,I only can remember that there's only a few of it,if my father wants to buy his kids a new clothes or shoes or anything we only come either to sarinah thamrin,pasar baru,plaza indonesia,grand duta...hey thats it!and when I'm in junior high school,its rising...starts with plaza senayan,mall taman anggrek...and many more to go..crazy huh!!jakarta...city of mall :p aduuuh aku sudah mulai bosan disini,dan mengantuk...dan masuk angin...huhu.eh bloggy u know what,kemarin itu aku sakit looohhh,kayaknya c masuk angin gara2 kebanyakan jalan2...hahahahaha,susyeee d...skalinya eksis malah sakit :p alhasil pas hari senin gak masuk kantor trus hari selasa ampe kamis tumben2an tuh pulang kantor langsung pulang biasanya kelayapan mulu gw-nya,eh baru pas hari jumat-nya pergi sama nuning makan bubur di karet trs bli dvd di ambassador...dan hari ini,sabtu,aku ke ambas lg beli bros utk kebaya kawinan besok...soo maybe u can call me ms.ambassador right now :p hehehhehehe,jayuz bener yah gw.hari ini gw hedonis bener d bloggy,belanja belanji trus...paraaah,sepertinya saya sedang stress...hiks,stress melulu :( mau curhat d,ttg dia yg sudah mengkhianati kuw..td siang sebelum nntn dvd,gw iseng buka fesbuk dan melihat profile-nya..I see all his wall and photos,I see all the picture between him and his wife...hiks,that's hurting..I am move on,but somehow...gw masih sakit hati banget..gw gak bisa ngelupain smua pengkhianatan yg uda pernah dia lakukan ke gw...mungkin emang gak baik,ya tapi gimana dooonk...saat ini blum ada pria yg bisa merebut hati dan pikiran gw,smuanya pada kalah sebelum berperang..hiks!yo wes lah sekian dulu curhatankuw kali ini,dikarnakan perutkuw sgt sakit..so I have to concentrate to my tummy :( buuubyee

Hai bloggy..hari ini aku mencoba update melalui blackberry kuw...dan ternyata bisa,how happy I am :D Today,I've got a great quote from someone named James Earl Jones, he said that "One of the hardest things in life is having words in your heart that you can't utter".I think that's very correct...don't you think so? I,myself have the same problem. There are many things (especially if its related to heart) that I can't express utterly,like now...gloomy feeling,so damn mellow,really wanting to have someone that I can chit-chat with but ended with no one.same old day and the same old story,with the same dillema..so confusing.kadang gw berfikir,cowok pernah gak siy ngalamin perasaan kayak gini? Dan apa sih yang mereka lakuin kalo lagi gloomy and mellow kayak gini? Pasti mereka cuek ajaa d.waa enak banget ya jadi cowok,pengen banget kayak gitu. Tapi yaa jadi perempuan juga alhamdulillah,banyak banget priviledges which man can't have,that's very special...I'm greatfull for that :)

What do I have for today? Quite hectic,have to reposses several items in my client office,accompany ucil to reposses her customer item.In the morning I almost came late to office,my absent time is 08:00:11 wekekek,crazy!tapi alhamdulillah ga telat siy,my office still can tolerate 11 seconds lateness :p gokil!wekekekkek,trus at 5 o'clock damnly prepare to go home eeeeehhhhh tau'nya hujan ajaah,huiks....paliiing sedih klo ujannya pas disaat puang kantor,akhirnya gw mampirlah ke starmart beli payung,dan pulanglah saya...happy :)

Sepertinya crita gw cukup amburadul hari ini,hahahhahaha...this the effect of my gloomy and moody mood,not good ya..yaa itulah jihan,apa adanya dan ada apanya :p.baiklaah,uda duluu aah..aku mau makan,buubyye :)

haii....haiiii

20.08 WIB

So this is my first time writing this blog....thanks to koko who made this for me...maaciiiihh yaaaa, finally i have my own blog....sooo happyyy =D what do i want to say?..well, firstly its a little bit weird having myself writing my own journal in this electronic diary called blog since i usually write my own journal with pen and a notes, but right now i have this and so here i am writing and so prepared sharing all my journey to you bloggy..great! i already give u a name "bloggy" =)

Today, i'm so sleepy but yet my eyes wont compromise, though my body felt so tired. I slept at 2 o'clock in the morning last night, had a wonderful night with nuning (my friend at the office) and aul (nuning's friend,just met him last night). We ate, we talked, we laughed, and its all happen because we want to watch 3 idiots, a bollywood movie...should i say, great movie! and then i woke up at 8 o'clock in the morning, have myself prepared to go with my family, hmm....destination? many! Arrived safely at home at 3 o'clock in the afternoon, then had a sleep for about 20 minutes and after that i cant sleep anymore. So i decided to take a bath, afternoon prayer (ashar), and then watched dvd until 6.30 in the evening.

And now, at 8 o'clock....in front of this computer, i'm trying to remember every little thing that happens to me....right from 2008 until now, which totally turns my life. Actually i'm a little bit confuse between telling you the story or not, but the story is something that really meaningful yet painful for me. is it about a boy? yes it is....did he hurt me? yes he is....did i love him? i don't know what love is, but i do care about him...did he break my heart into pieces? yes he absolutely did it....did he cheated on me? definitely!...did he happy right now? probably....well, many more to come...and im kind of an introvert woman, cannot express my feeling precisely to someone. Though i am a moody person, but its still hard for me to let others know what I'm truly feels.

I really want to make you my special friend bloggy, but I'm afraid that having myself too outspoken here would probably gonna make me look so dumb. You will see and you will get to know me real well, and by the time comes you know that underneath it all i have telling you so many....and probably everything with indirect method =p

o yaa...sometimes something better say it in English than bahasa, soo you will see that my notes is sooo 'frustrating' and complicated *as complicated as my mind and myself* should we call it "campur aduk" between english and bahasa =p....mo coba2 gayaa deeeh ceritanyaa...ok then, uda dulu yaaa....i'll get back to you soon, buubyee ^.^

Buku Harian (blog)

Halooooo dunia,..ini adalah posting pertamaku,...

aku suka nulis, dan mulai sekarang akua akan coba menulis ditiap halaman di buku harianku ini. Namanya blog Jihan Alia,...

aku sempat bertanya sama OM WIKIPEDIA, katanya buku harian atau Diary adalah catatan kejadian yang kita alami sehari-hari. Kita menulis kejadian yang mengesankan pada hari ini pada buku diary. Fungsi Diary adalah sebagai kenangan masa-masa yang pernah kita alami. Bisa juga sebagai momento/sejarah kehidupan kita. Seiring dengan perubahan zaman yang terlalu cepat sehingga perubahan tersebut membuat individu semakin stress entah dengan kariernya atau keluarganya, Diary atau buku harian pun berubah fungsi dari sekedar menyimpan kenangan menjadi sebuah media untuk mencurahkan perasaan seseorang atas masalah yang dihadapinya. Menurut Alice D. Domar, menulis buku harian adalah sebuah langkah untuk mengungkapkan emosi dan perasaan kita dan membantu kita untuk merawat pikiran kita. Juga dengan berkembangnya teknologi, buku harian sekarang tidak hanya ditulis pada secarik kertas namun juga bisa berupa data di komputer atau notebook bahkan ada yang berupa fasilitas daring untuk menulis buku harian di internet.

Sampai jumpa lagi ya,....